And its rain......again.

So its a monday. I got to wake up a little late and then go to school until later in the afternoon, and now I get to work until tomorrow morning.
It rained all day today. not just rain but it felt like the water was waging war on all of us. It was a lot of rain. Most people hate the rain, but I like it. It softens all the other sounds in the world. Makes the whole day have a white noise background.
I kinda felt weird today. I was tired but not as tired as I have been. And I felt kinda sad I guess. I don't know why... I have felt like there is going to be more bad things happening and maybe since I haven't had good sleep and I cant remember my dreams I am working through whatever grief might be coming ahead of time.
It really sucks.
And on a different note.......a man with three......nevermind.

I kinda feel like I would really just like someone to hold, someone who would make me feel happier then I am. I am lonely, and I have been for a while. It sucks and I can't believe I let myself get used to it. :(
But hopefully that will change soon. :)

Later days mes amis.

I still cant feel myself..........

So today was a pretty good day. Friday so that means no class and extra sleep. And then I spent a good afternoon with Kyle Lewis. We got lunch, sundays, and yeah. Then I played games at home and decided to drive to Tualitin with my parents to check out a new car we are getting. And then I hung out with one of my favorite people ever, Cathrine Frink ;P.
And that was fun, mostly 30 Rock and dreams.......;)
And then I decided to walk home.....with the pants that have no knees. And it was at most 23 degrees, maybe that was a bad idea, but oh well.
Today was fun. Thanks guys.

Later days

Moving and then shit breaks

So i have been doing better. Everyday is still longer then it should be and I need that break away from everything still, but i'm doing better. This weekend I helped some buds move into their new house. Awesome group of guys. It was fun. And after that it got a little wild-ish and I kinda broke their couch. But it will be alright. :)
Tomorrow......Today. :)
It is Miss Kay-tee Thatcher's birthday and we are all going to the beach!!!
Its going to be so much fun, i dont even care what the weather does because its still going to be great :D
Later days

Something Wicked this way comes...

If none of you have premonitions then you don't know what this feels like, mourning before a death happens, preparing yourself. I feel something coming, and it probably isn't good since I can't remember my dreams. At all. That is weird for me and usually means premonitions. I hate it sometimes,most of the time its about meeting people or being someplace new and important.
But recently I can feel something bad coming, death, disaster, change that isnt good. I feel like im drowning, like I can't take a breathe. I know it will pass but after Chuckles' death surprised me like that im worried about what is left, and who it might happen to. I haven't slept well for weeks, only a couple good nights in the last month in a half. And my mom feels it too.
And in 2009 i said that 2010 would be bad but that 2011 would be different then that, harsher. I even found an old word doc that I wrote that all down on.
Im going to try and get some sleep
Later days.